Because you tried to use it consciously. You tried to make it happen. For you, apparently, the death wish won't operate if you deliberately endeavor to employ it. 
Appearing in "Wish List"
Featured Characters:
- Template:Flash
Supporting Characters:
- Moondragon (Heather Douglas)
- Jimmy Richman (Only in flashback)
- Elsa Chandler (Only in flashback)
- Sly (Only in flashback) (Death)
- Antonio (Only in flashback)
- Mona, roommate of Marlo (Only in flashback)
- ⏴ Joe Fixit (Bruce Banner) ⏵
Villains:
Other Characters:
- Al
- J. Michael Straczynski
- Murray
- Captain Marvel (Genis-Vell)
Locations:
- Los Angeles
- Golden Orange Comics
- Las Vegas (Only in flashback)
Items:
Vehicles:
Synopsis for "Wish List"
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